Change and consistency are good. Have you thought about the atmosphere surrounding you? Have you thought about changing your atmosphere? Are you not as consistent as you think you are? Are there some things that you need and don't know how to go about it? Well, sometimes you have to first look at yourself, then sit back and be quiet. Once you have done these things, you will notice that you need to talk to God. As you begin to pray, you will feel a shift, and He will begin to speak to you. Giving you the answers that you need. Let me tell you a quick story.
For the last few weeks, I wanted to give up. I wanted to stop writing the post in Grandma's Corner (thinking it is not making a difference in anyone's lives or no one reading it, liking, or sharing it). I have so much passion behind the words that I write and I truly feel that God instructed me to do this, but is anyone noticing? My life was in shambles, I was being pulled in so many different directions, helping others in 3 states, while my life was seemingly falling apart. I was getting up every day to send out the messages. I was paying out more money for my business than I was bringing in. I am in the triple-negative (let's be clear). Everyone wanted their money on time but didn't necessarily respect my money (if you get what I am saying). Some people were discrediting whether what I am doing is worthy of being called a "business". As if being an author is small potatoes and as if getting up every morning writing inspiration is easy when no one is inspiring or encouraging you. Everything was closing in on me. I said I would stop. No one will notice. They are probably happy they are not coming in every day. Well, I said I am going to sit back (went away for a night to relax and clear my head) and pray about this, because in my soul this is my everything, this is my baby. I felt when I first started this, that people needed it, the encouragement, inspiration, and a reality check. Especially the reality check, every day. I know I do. Anyway, moving on with the story, God answered my prayer. Someone sent me an email, about the missed days and checking to see if " I" were ok. I thank God for the confirmation, then responded to the email.
I needed to change my atmosphere, and focus on my prayer life, so the change or the shift could come. I needed to slow down. I needed to look at myself. My pitcher was empty. I had poured everything I had into everyone else, and I wasn't being poured into. Alston Shropshire wasn't being poured into. The wife, the mother, the friend, the associate, the family member, or the help, wasn't being poured into. I didn't know what God's response would be, but I knew He would answer me. When your heart is pure and sincere, when you have good intentions, He will give you favor!
Here was my prayer...
Father God, thank You for being my Father. Thank You for being everything everyone is not to me! Thank You for keeping me and penetrating my mind. Thank You for being my everything. Father I know You told me to start this journey and that You would make my path clear. I don't feel that everyone is receptive to the works or the words that I am giving. I feel shunned, judged, and crucified for the message that I am bringing. The message that I am asking You to give to me each morning. Father, I pray that You send the supporters and I don't have to beg for them. Father, I ask that the people be receptive and that they receive confirmation through these messages. Father, I ask that these messages lead them to the word of life in the Bible consistently. Father, I thank You that You chose me to do this, as weary as I feel, give me the strength to carry on. Send me a sign to keep going, that You have Your miraculous hands on me and this project. Allow me to be consistent so we all can change and be better than we were yesterday. In Jesus' name, I pray, Amen.
"I may not the best in your eyes, but the message has been sent through me by the Father.I believe that wholeheartedly. It is up to you whether you believe it or not. I am doing my part in what is asked of me, for that He will judge me. Whether you believe or not, He will also judge." - Alston Shropshire